Office Politics

I'm not one for hiding how I feel and sucking up to people. I typically say how I feel. Because of that I'm not a big fan of office politics. Face time...ass kissing...not my deal. In the department I work on, we are at the bottom of the food chain because we aren't visibly contributing to the bottom line. We don't make or sell anything in the finance department. As a result, other departments walk all over us. And unless you can get the VP or SVP on your side on an issue, you are screwed. Because of one situation in particular, I am being forced to spend about 4-6 hours fixing something another department screwed up. We tell them not to do something, they do it anyway, there are no consequences. This is the second time it has happened in the last two weeks. No one is going to do anything about it and the situation will never improve since we won't stand up to them.

I have remained much more calm about the issue than I did last time, which is keeping me in line with my goal to be more relaxed, more positive, but it's still irritating beyond belief.

Progress

The ultimate test of my ability to remain calm/relaxed already occurred today. Health care issues. When I went to get a prescription filled last night they told me that my medical card was not adequate for prescription coverage. I needed a prescription card. The kind lady at the pharmacy informed me that I must have lost my card and I should go home and find it. Since my medical insurance has only been effective for 13 days now, I knew I didn't lose my card, but let her make her comment.

The true test was today when I had to call our HR people to find out my employee ID number that should have been on the employee ID card I never got. I needed this ID number to get through to the prescription people to get that card that was never sent to me. After ten-twenty minutes of listening to the automated voice tell me there was still no one to help me, I was surprisingly calm. This is major progress for me. Usually this situation would make me want to scream about the stupidity of some people and how rude some people can be. But I didn't....and I should be getting a prescription card in the mail any day now! :)

Making a Change

It's time for me to make some changes in my life. I was reminded on three different occasions this weekend that I need to be more positive and less uptight/more relaxed. The first was an intentional reminder from the person who bears the most as a result of my negativity, the second reminder was by watching someone I don't want to end up like and the third was when I snapped at a health club front desk person because of something stupid someone else did, but no one would take responsibility for.

I need to start looking at the glass as half full, not half empty. Lots of things have been irritating me lately with work, family, etc and I need to start controlling how I react much better. A friend of mine last week told me that she can control two things related to her job...one was the quality of her work and the other was her attitude. My first thought was that I can't control my attitude, it just happens, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized just how important learning to control my attitude is. Especially the little things in life.

I'm in good health and have a wonderful boyfriend and fabulous friends. I'm actively searching out career paths that may lead to more happiness. I am more aware of how my actions affect other people. Even if it's only been a very short time that I've been doing this, it's a good start. Hopefully this change in attitude/hope sticks for a very very long time.